Today brought a very random piece of information to my attention. I learned a new friend of mine at work had made the decision to move back overseas to be with her family and study. While I may be writing this hours after my initial reaction, it doesn't really dispel the sadness I guess. It is a bit difficult to find the correct words to convey the meaning I'm trying to put forward... on one hand, I'm happy for her in the sense that she's taking her life in the direction she wants to, instead of being tied down working here for the next who knows when. Her immediate family is over there too, which she must miss an awful lot, so that's another plus for her.
On the other hand, it really was just beginning to feel like we were starting to get along pretty well together at work. I can readily admit I take a while to get used to a new environment and new people, and sometimes that can take longer depending on the circumstances. So really this part of my rant is purely operating on a selfish level... upheaval of any kind always has an effect on people really.
Upheaval and adapting to new environments is something I've experienced a fair few times, having moved countries twice as a child. Honestly, I don't think I can say I've ever gotten used to it. Some people handle it better than others, some even thrive on a change in scenery. How I wish I was one of those people... life would be so much easier to handle, haha. But for me, that would involve being completely emotionally detached from everything and everyone around me and I don't think I would be able to trade that away so easily.
After I got home, I went for a run in the dark to try and diffuse all these thoughts swimming around. Indeed, typing away here tonight does help a bit too... better not give too much information away I think... In any case, this period of say out loud soul searching has gone on for a lot longer than I expected. I might have a bit more to say once it is time to say goodbye, but I'm going to try and enjoy the next few weeks while she's still around... things certainly won't be the same without her.
- Justin
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